So as of recently ive gotten a job.. a place.. and a girl... its weird im sort of happy but yet there are so many other crappy things going on inbetween the lines of my smile... i just dont know what to do really so im goingto go with the flow of things.. i am still definately far from where i want to be .. so im going to try and just do what i want to do.. its difficult. but im getting sick of being dragged through time thinking every thing is ok when its not yet anywhere near "OK" I am happy for the most part im at the begining of something i think .. im meeting some great new people and that sort of thing.. waiting around to get paid so i actualy can have the net again and be more active here.. all i have are breaks durring work to speak.. so my oppoligies for not commenting even close to half as much as i should. hope you all have a great day.